Vulnerability

Sharing our vulnerability with another person is always a tough thing to do regardless of how much progress someone has made in the journey of self awareness and self love.

I see there are two parts to sharing our vulnerability with others.

The moments from our past which anyone could easily judge us for. Still we process those thoughts and emotions time and again until it gets dried up and all the associated guilt, shame, regret and other tough emotions evaporate away and the experience alone stands crisp as a sun dried pickle that can be stored in a container for years together. This container can be opened anytime and the experiences can be shared with close friends and strangers alike without a second thought. 

And the toughest part comes when we are feeling vulnerable at the moment and our rational mind hasn't yet processed through all the emotions. When the default trauma response screams loud "I don't need anyone. I can handle this myself." And the inner child whispers gently "I miss my mom". It's at this moment when vulnerability is experienced at its peak, it's hard to open up to someone. Not because you don't want to. But you just don't have the words that make any sense about how you feel.