Heart's wisdom

Life is much easier when you are blissfully unaware of everything that's messed up about the way their world functions. 

But life is kind enough to dance on your rose tinted glasses that you inevitably end up witnessing people and experiences for what they are in real. 

And then you are filled with so much adrenaline to change the world for the better. And you may even make some concrete changes in some areas of your life wherever your momentum takes you forward. 

Out of nowhere life feels like a plateau. You are willing to put in all the efforts it takes. But where? What? How? 

You do feel grateful for where you had started your journey and where you have reached now. No second thoughts on that. But you can't keep staying in this limbo and make it your home. This particular phase is meant to be uncomfortable so that you move out of this phase all by yourself. But how? You don't see anything specific in your vicinity. No signboard. What to do now? 

Maybe this part of the journey isn't about flexing your muscles and nerves like Ratchagan Nagarjuna. 

You don't have to play detective anymore removing blocks in your way one after the other. You wish you could close your eyes like Vadivelu and run with a prayer "Minnal vegathula poitu iruken. Edhirka manal lorry ethuvum vandhira kudathu kadavule".

Fortunately or unfortunately, this phase of the journey demands you to learn to listen to and lean on your heart's wisdom. And you are left wondering if there is any special headset available that helps you do this!? 

Motivation

 You may not have done a Ph.D. in Motivation yet. But you had read so many quotes, blogs, books written on this topic. You didn't leave any Ted talk, insta reel, youtube video that speaks about ways to motivate yourself.

It did work. But the validity period expired, and you are left alone looking for the booster dose. 

If you are reading this in hopes of finding your next dose, I am sorry to disappoint you. Even I don't know how or where to find it. And that's the reason I started writing this article.

Ironically, life surprises you at moments when you finally come to terms with how disappointed you feel about yourself and your life. It's as if life had packed a consolation prize inside the wrapper of disappointment.

You don't need motivation. You just want to shut everything down, scream at the top of your lungs, heart, throat and what not! You want to push everyone and everything away. But without being left alone. You want everything to be sorted out as if by magic. And even if that happens, you discount that very thing because of your disbelief that your life can never get any better. You believe that everyone out there is an asshole who has no clue what (s)he does with his/her life. When life feels like a crazy temple run game where you don't know why you are running, why were those monsters chasing you and why can't you hide or jump anywhere without losing life?

Better splash some cold water on your face and step outside for a walk. When the body moves, the mind moves along with it. Get your body moving. Feel the moving breeze on your face. Prepare yourself properly in your treasure hunt for motivation :)